In the Divine Presence of my Guruji John 8:2 - 8:11 (KJV Holy Bible)
Now early in the morning He came again into the temple, and all the people came to Him; and He sat down and taught them. Then the scribes and Pharisees brought to Him a woman caught in adultery. And when they had set her in the midst, they said to Him, "Teacher, this woman was caught in adultery, in the very act. Now Moses, in the law, commanded us that such should be stoned. But what do You say?" This they said, testing Him, that they might have something of which to accuse Him. But Jesus stooped down and wrote on the ground with His finger, as though He did not hear. So when they continued asking Him, He raised Himself up and said to them, "He who is without sin among you, let him throw a stone at her first." And again He stooped down and wrote on the ground. Then those who heard it, being convicted by their conscience, went out one by one, beginning with the oldest even to the last. And Jesus was left alone, and the woman standing in the midst. When Jesus had raised Himself up and saw no one but the woman, He said to her, "Woman, where are those accusers of yours? Has no one condemned you?" She said, "No one, Lord." And Jesus said to her, "Neither do I condemn you; go and sin no more."
It is ever so easy to condemn others for their 'crimes', forgetting that we ourselves are also equally guilty of 'crimes' every day. I have often played the role of the the scribes and Pharisees and also became the 'prostitute'. You can never truly appreciate the value of forgiveness and redemption, until you are in the 'gutter' of life, deprived of all honour and dignity, 'undeserving' and 'unforgivable', at the lowest ebb of your life, when the notion of 'death' would be a mercy, that you suddenly realise that during these troubled times, the Lord is carrying you because He still loves you. My Lord came in the form of His Holiness my Guruji, who is my Lord Krishna, my Lord Christ, my Lord Ram and my Lord Ganesha.
On the 7th May 2009, my Guruji visited London, as part of His pre-planned worldwide tour to be with His devotees. I have been unable to undertake my annual pilgrimage to Ganga Ma this year and this has caused me much distress. So it was with much anticipation that I looked forward to Guruji's visit and also some 'shame' that I was unable to celebrate Maha Shivratri this year on the Holy Banks of Ganga Ma. His first words when He beheld me was, "Where have you been, my dear?" I wished I could have had a private moment with Him, just to be close to my Guruji, away from all the crowd, just like a son spending some quality time with his Father. But it was not to be, given the large crowd present wanting also to be close to Guruji. My 'gift' to Him was, as usual returned as prasad to me, with a remark that "I do not wear such (luxurious) cloths". I wanted to ask, "Tell me Guruji, what gifts would You like, I will go and get it". But all He did was gaze into my eyes and held me tenderly by my cheeks, like a loving father would behold a prodigal son. I often forget that the prodigal son is the most precious gift that a father would ask for.
My Guruji has always said to me that, "The greatest gift that you could give is the gift of yourself", not some physical material object which would eventually decay return to the earth. This I believe is the dedication of my 'self' to the service of Almighty God, humanity and mankind, without expectation of any rewards. It is a duty and a calling, not the mere satisfaction of my conscience, for even that is a 'reward' for my conscience. In this present world and age, it can sometimes be difficult to dedicate selfless service, without being tempted to the material wealth and physical pleasures of life. This is especially so when a person's worth is measured by the successes in obtaining qualifications, accolades and material wealth. However, my Lord Christ has said, "What use is it to gain the world, and yet lose your soul".
I pray for the health and happiness of all my spiritual family at Parmarth Niketan. I pray to my Lord Ganesha, giving Him thanks for leading me to my Spiritual Father, my Guruji. I pray that He will bestow upon my Guruji a long life and success in all His undertaking. I pray to my Guruji that He forgives this prodigal son for all his sins and failures.
Aum Gam Ganapatayeh Namah
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